John Grisham talks about how his first book was a commercial failure, published by a “vanity press.” If you ever hear him talk about this, he will talk about what some call “reality checks” similar to what you are discussing. (You know the old joke: “your reality check just bounced.”) His THIRD completed novel was a commercial success (“The Firm”), but he explicitly says that he had to adjust his writing to meet the demands of publishers and the public. As an aside, you might also be “ahead of your time.” (e.g. Van Gogh.) And, in many endeavors, sometimes discouragement is part of the process. But, I feel yo pain. See, also: https://stillanotherwritersblog.wordpress.com/2017/01/03/it-is-too-bad-for-the-wood-which-finds-itself-a-violin/
They always say you should never give up on your dreams, but what if your dream isn’t worth fighting for? What if it turns out to be a nightmare?
I’ve been writing and sending my work out for years, trying to get the publishing industry interested in what I’m doing. But the publishing industry has remained blissfully indifferent to my offerings. Finally, last year, the clamour of that indifference drove me to question what I was doing and why – perhaps I should have done it earlier…
It turns out I wasn’t chasing a dream at all. I was chasing a fantasy, but it took me a little while to see the difference. It’s obvious in retrospect and I feel like an idiot – but there’s nothing unusual about that.
So what is the difference between a dream and a fantasy?
- A dream is real.
- A fantasy is a…
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